2011 is Here

2011 is already here!! Nothing changed much since 2010 it is the end of the day almost midnight I am with my cup of tea and needing to go to bed soon to start the day early tomorrow to catch up with all the endless list that I was not able to finish today. I am still working hard; the story of everyday what to cook for dinner and how to balance my life.

This idea of a balance life seem to keep creeping to my mind. Is it the fact that my mind can't stop worrying! could it be the few days I spent in the hospital was a good reminder of how fragile we are; is it the fact that I am getting older and realizing that I don't want to just do things to just fill my day that every minute matter

The last few days I have been thinking about my days and my hours. I am getting back to watching the sun set over the sea the most beautiful view, I have stop to feel the wind on my face, to walk a little slower from one place to another, I try to not just walk by the flower beds without taking my time to enjoy their beauty, few days ago I spent some time watching a bee farm in the garden going around busy with their work was the best therapy to forget about the world for a while. It is been a while that I have taken the time and watched my girls sleep. I notices that I have been too worried about what might go wrong and to busy trying to protect them from what I think might be a mistake that I have forgotten to enjoy them. It is so easy to lose track of what makes us happy. We get too busy trying to do things and get things that we forget to live.

The last few months I have been listening to much more music just doing that I been much happier for many reasons it seems that it awaken my soul. Remembering beautiful moments of my life things that made me happy. We are too busy feeling guilty about mistakes we have done or what other might think of us. Many things in life is out of our control but it is truly nothing comparing to what is in our control. We are such a free creatures but we build walls around our body and around our soul we work so hard to crowed our selves with material things and we feel trapped. We set so many rules and restriction that we suffocate our selves. Then we wonder why are we not happy.

This idea of contentment is such a beautiful concept but again how to balance contentment with not being lazy. Doing the right thing; helping someone; working hard for something you believe in brings such a joy yet it is an art to learn how to balance that with taking care of yourself. Taking care of yourself to be productive and useful not for the sake of taking care of yourself and not going over board and becoming selfish!. Again this idea of balance how much is too much and how much is enough and how much is just right. a simple chemical balance can give you the answer of the perfect reaction yet what can help us learned how to balance our life is something that my mind is exploring lately. I have not been a good friend to communicate with many of you so to balance that i thought a good place to star is getting back to updating this blog and postig what is going on my mind. Wish you a happy 2011!