Family/love/Happines/pain

Family is such an amazing thing. It is those people who know you, understand your pains and rejoice for your happiness. It is those people that you are not worried to be yourself around, be silly, or just lay there and be lazy while they fix you a meal and you will not feel guilty about it. They don’t judge you and don’t expect anything back. It is those people that love you with all your imperfection. It is someone that is miles away but knows when you are having a hard time someone that you close your eyes and can feel them close. I am lucky as I know what it means to love and how it feels to be loved. You might wonder why all the sudden this change of style of what I am writing. What is it that is making me think of all these things? It is part of who I am and who I will always be. In between this amazing experience these beautiful pictures and wonderful evening a part of me is always home sick. Home sick not to a place it is to the people I hold close to my heart.

Partly it is the music CD I was listing to this morning, and partly my brother’s fault he called couple of hours ago. We talked for an hour. We kept getting interrupted by the kids at both ends; we talked about all kind of unrelated topics. But when he hang-up I could not stop crying, he had called to wish me happy mother’s day. Few days ago my family got together for a memorial service for my mother and just before he called I was looking at the pictures for the memorial service. I can’t believe it is been four years since my mother passed away on mothers day. I remember one night as I kneeled next to her bed while she was sick begging her not to leave us she said that I should not cry and she is a lucky person how had done everything she wanted to do in her life and that my dad been waiting for her for too long. It was almost 20 years since my dad had passed away. For all these years my mother took care of five kids alone and always talked about my dad as he was next to her. She managed to sent us all to school watch us graduate one by one, got us all married, watch us have kids went travel teaching to Russia, China. The last thing she did was going to her Baha’i pilgrimage while she was sick. She made it despite the fact that the doctors said that no way she will make it. She connected with everyone she met, she gave so much of her self even when she was sick. For those of you who don’t know her she was an amazing lady; one of a kind. She lived her life doing what she thought is right which was not always the easy way or the most comfortable way or what her heart desired. Speaking of doing the right things. Nadia can’t go to sleep and needs her mother so I better go.

Happy mother’s day for all the lovely mothers and for those of you who are lucky to still have your mothers around make sure not to take any thing for granted.